Welcome to Episode 225 with my guests, Joe and June.

I'm Paul Gilmarten, this is the Metal Illness Happy Hour.

A place for honesty about all the battles in our heads, from medically diagnosed conditions,

past traumas and sexual dysfunction to everyday compulsive negative thinking.

The show's not meant to be a substitute for professional metal counseling, it's not

a doctor's office, I'm not a therapist, it's more like a waiting room that doesn't suck.

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I have been feeling, you know, I like to give you guys updates sometimes, especially if

coming off the heels of having a bad couple of weeks or a month, especially if it's

med-related and as a lot of you know, I had a brutal couple of months coming off a

billify and then everything kind of leveled out.

But I'm in this weird place lately where I'm kind of between good and numb.

It's such a bizarre place to be because you want to feel better, but you almost feel

greedy because you don't feel bad.

There's like nothing that's weighing on me where I'm like, oh God, I got to deal with

this crisis.

But there's just a lack of kind of excitement that I really wish was there.

It's weird.

It's, I know you guys can relate to that.

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