220: What if they died in your hands?
This Is Actually Happening
Wondery
4.6 • 9.9K Ratings
🗓️ 1 February 2022
⏱️ 56 minutes
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Summary
“I just thought this is not happening, like how could this be happening? This isn’t supposed to happen…I felt like it was my fault.”
Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock
Episode Summary: An obstetrician must find healing and forgiveness after an unexpected tragedy opens old wounds.
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Content/Trigger Warnings: sexual molestation of a minor, incest, death, infant death, pregnancy trauma, medical trauma, explicit language
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Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper
Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho
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Transcript
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| 0:00.0 | This is actually happening features real experiences that often include traumatic events. |
| 0:04.2 | Please consult the show notes for specific content warnings on each episode |
| 0:07.6 | and for more information about support services. |
| 0:17.2 | I was just like out of my mind with grief. |
| 0:20.4 | I couldn't even fathom like I just thought this is not happening. |
| 0:24.6 | Like how could this be happening? |
| 0:26.4 | This isn't supposed to happen. |
| 0:28.8 | I just felt physically sick. |
| 0:31.6 | I felt like it was my fault. |
| 0:43.6 | From Wondry, I'm Whit Missaldine. |
| 0:46.9 | You are listening to this is actually happening. |
| 0:49.9 | Episode 20 |
| 0:56.9 | Episode 20 |
| 0:59.9 | What if they died in your hands? |
| 1:09.3 | Hey, prime members. |
| 1:10.7 | You can listen to this is actually happening. |
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| 1:15.3 | Download the app today. |
| 1:17.7 | Hi there Wondry listeners. |
| 1:19.7 | Hannah and Sruti here from TrueCram Podcast Redhanded. |
| 1:21.7 | Your favourite podcast redhanded. |
| 1:23.7 | We just wanted to say how excited we are to be included in Amazon Music |
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