Welcome back to what have you. I'm Rachel Jankovic. I'm Becca Merkel.

And we are making a profound effort to show up before Becca goes on a trip again.

And guys, the thing is I'm not apologizing. It's May and even

though we started failing in April, April was the part right before May and May is out of control and always has been and that's just

well our fate I'm just gonna say guys that we did in fact rally together and record the most boring

duddy terrible recording of all several weeks ago. We shared it.

We shared it not with you.

Yeah, we thought maybe not.

I'm not saying we usually sparkle.

I actually don't even remember.

But whatever sparkle we would ordinarily have was absent.

It had been buffed off by the sandblasting of the schedule.

But you know what else?

It was buffed off by?

I didn't tell you this. I think I realized it. I think the next day after

that podcast. I had just been so like weird tired, just sleepy tired in a weird way where I was like this is just

weird guys but it would be like dinner and I'd finish dinner and I'd be like

everyone I'm just gonna go sit on the couch I put my feet up because I'm just going to go sit on the couch. I put my feet up because I'm about to die. I'm so tired.

And then I discovered the next day this has been going on for...

You drink a decaf? Yep.

I had bought and actually it wasn't even my fault because we'd run out of coffee and so it was one of those early mornings like oh we're out of beans and we drove to Starbucks through the drive-thru got a drip coffee just like yeah to get on with our day and just said actually can we

have a bag of beans while we're here or just ask for a bag of pipe place and they

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