Welcome to the feminine podcast. This is Nancy Wilson. Thanks so much for joining me today.

The topic today is making an idle of our will, which is a

phrase I read from Samuel Rutherford. Here's the context. This is a quote from him.

Verily, we know not what an evil it is to indulge ourselves

and to make an idol of our will.

I pray God that I may never find my will again. Oh if Christ would

liberate me from that lawless Lord. All right, so what is it about our will that Rutherford is speaking of?

What is our will anyway? Well, our will is what we want. Our choice, our preference, our heart's desire.

Elsewhere Rutherford says your heart is not the compass God sails by.

And aren't we grateful for that? Because our hearts are prone to change, aren't they?

All the foolish decisions we might have made had not God intervened. If he had answered all of our prayers

exactly the way we wanted, where would we be now? So how do we make an idle of our will though?

Well, it's when we lock our knees and refuse to budge when God says no.

Like a child whose father tells him, you may not.

And the child says, but I want to.

Haven't we all been there?

Sometimes we pray and pray for something and God says no. Maybe it was a school you wanted to get

into or a job you applied for or a house you wanted to buy. But God said no. We must never attribute bad motives to God

for not giving us what we have asked for. We must trust him. But often we don't

understand why his will is not the same as ours.

But how could we understand he is our sovereign Lord and King, the one who made all things?

We have a limited view he has an and King, the one who made all things.

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