Welcome back to what have you. I'm Rachel Jankvik. I'm Becca Merkel. And I just woke up.

I drove out to our house you guys. Hopeful. Hopeful that we could do a podcast. I was met with empty silence when I got here.

I was spotted. I was like, well, she was just be out running errands and stuff. I dropped something off. I left. I went back to town. Yeah.

Made it made it a little ways and turned out in turned out that I was asleep. So there's that.

So I came back. I drove back. I know I said even on the podcast because everybody told me I said it right before I ever knew I would be pregnant.

You said it would be a geriatric pregnancy. I remember that. I have made some comments about the innocence of napping while you're pregnant.

Like how that is the thing I would actually miss is feeling like I want to lay down like I'm tired. I'm gonna lay down.

I just like to do a little bit of a retraction on that because it's true that I feel innocent. If I am so tired, I have to lay down. I don't feel like I may not do that.

But it's also true that man, you just get mugged with the need to take a nap in a way that you otherwise.

You have more defenses at other times. Yeah. There are other times where I'm like, no, we'll approach this differently.

We'll like I might drink a coffee. Yeah. I've even done it where I would throw on my running shoes and go outside and run around for a minute to like make your body.

You can't do it now. I think I'm in some kind of a deep cleanse of exhaustion that I'm going through right now where it's.

It's a lot of long held exhaustion is coming to the surface. It's been. It's the summer of of utter power.

But I am told Rachel is but twice two nights in a row. I fell asleep with my contacts in so hard that there was nothing.

There was nothing to be done about it. Like Ben was like, no, you were just you were out. You were totally out.

So I am I'm in that phase, but I haven't I haven't napped. But I have drug myself around feeling groggy.

Yeah. Well, my napping is not I'm not like I'm napping all the time. I just.

Now that it hits you hard sometimes when the kids started school, it is it is a very different rhythm of life, which is all of a sudden the house is so silent.

And it's so big and it's so silent that it is. And the reason I mentioned the bigness is simply the what I'm trying to get around.

Yeah, too. And it's funny. It's like you're truly an insufficient person to have on hand to deal with this.

And there are times where that just overtakes you.

And today was that day. Anyway, the point is everyone was simply overtook and I get a gold star for driving out to Rachel's twice in order to attempt a podcast.

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