This is Optimal Living Daily Episode 1868, an excerpt from the book,

Hungry for Happiness by Samantha Skelly, and I'm just a molecule personal narrator

reading to you every day including holidays. Now I usually narrate from blogs, but sometimes books

like today. I'll tell you about the author right after the reading, so for now,

let's get right to it as we optimize your life.

An excerpt from the book, Hungry for Happiness by Samantha Skelly.

I used to avoid uncertainty at all costs. I'd create structures and rules that kept me in a

constant state of predictability in my relationships, career, finances, and of course my body and food.

If I had a plan, I felt safe. When things stayed predictable, I was able to relax. But this is life,

and life rarely goes according to plan, and when things went off the rails, my anxiety would go into

overdrive. You know those moments when you carefully craft what you want to happen and the reality

just blows up in your face? Those moments when no matter how hard you whiten-uckle, life goes in

the opposite direction. Those moments would send me really. During my diet depression, back when

my relationships with food and my body were the most broken, I would journal out my day, hour by

hour. For four years, the day looked similar to this with slight variations depending on what

fat diet I was testing out. 5.30am? Wake up. Six o'clock, work out. Seven o'clock, shower, and get ready.

8 o'clock, eat breakfast, 300 calories. 9 o'clock, start work. 10.30, eat snack, 100 calories.

noon, eat lunch, 300 calories. 1 o'clock, work out. 3 o'clock, eat snack, 100 calories.

6 o'clock, eat dinner, 300 calories. 8 o'clock, drink, slimming tea. In 9 p.m., bed.

This was my life pre-scheduled with my calories pre-decided. I was obsessed with certainty.

I didn't know how to survive without it. I left no room to breathe, no room for the universe to

infuse this magic. Certainty in my life felt safe, but it was strangling me. There were times when

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