How dare you not fulfill me the way I need you to the way I want you to how dare you do this to me.

You're ruining my life. This is what happens.

That's why we hate people that are exes and ex spouses and boyfriends and girlfriends.

What's up everybody welcome to the podcast episode 179 thanks for being here with me I love to do this it's something that it's a it's kind of a release from all the other many jobs that I that I do and this is this is the one probably the one job I have that I really get to slow the pace and that's what I love about podcast form just we get to just kind of slow down and have a real

discussion these these videos are not edited I don't I don't cut them up to make them faster for you so this is the way to hear it you know a long answer as if me knew or sitting around a campfire and just kind of looking into the embers and you know it's getting late at night got a chair you got your got your boots up on a rock listen to the flicker crackle you just say hey man can I ask you a question look over yeah

you got man it's just something about life something's been going on with me and just wondering if we could talk about something and that's really what we do on this podcast

instead of asking me at a campfire you email me grainger smith podcast at gmail.com I don't have any notes just like I wouldn't at a campfire I don't have any any quotes or things ready to go for you I'm just going to say whatever's on my heart and even though it might always not always be right it's what's on my heart

so I appreciate you guys if I get angry if I start sounding angry or excited it's because I love you and I'm very passionate about some of these questions and so I promise you I wouldn't I would not read it if I didn't like you if I didn't love you I wouldn't care right so it's sometimes we get into some tough love that being said this

good to the first question septic line says need advice haven't read this I haven't read any of these you're going to hear it as I hear it for the first time here we go

hey grainger my name is miles I'm 29 from marsh filled Wisconsin I have dealt with depression and anxiety for roughly 10 years I met this amazing girl that sparked my soul I had a really bad day

Friday night while we were out with her brother and sister-in-law I overreacted over something so stupid and immature I ended things with her

because I didn't want to hurt her anymore emotionally I lever so much and I honestly believe and have the most faith that she is my person and my soulmate

I have never felt this way about a single person or thing in my whole life

I want to call and text her throughout the day but I don't want to do that until I get mentally better to be the best boyfriend

best friend for her that I could be what can I do to help me and do you think that there is any chance she'll

give me another chance once I'm good all right miles 29 shout out to Wisconsin thanks for opening up this is

this is deep on your heart man so thank you for opening up on something that you have dealt with for 10 years really

so let's dive into it okay I'm gonna pick apart your email this is what I'm gonna do the whole podcast I'm

gonna pick apart I'm gonna use your words because that's all I have I don't have your eyes or your

body language I just have what you wrote someone to use your words down to the letter okay that's all I

got on this podcast so I'm gonna quickly recap you have struggled with depression and you fell in love

you had a bad night Friday and you were also in public in front of her brother which is embarrassing

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