Welcome back to what have you. I'm Rachel Jankovic. I have to confess that Beggar was

going to push the record button and I prepared myself to launch into a dear God we

thank you so much for this food for this time that we're having together but

there is no food we're not having a meal together but I I actually think of

that kind of speaks to sort of the mental clarity that we're having at

lard I don't have mental clarity at all right now I have what I have is a

no I can't even formulate the words that shows last night at pdg a number of

people were agreeing with its tradition here to have memageddon yeah and we're

like but it seems like it started it started a month early yeah I'm like what

happened it's like a premature May yep yep oh well we'll live we will we will live

I I just have a sort of a fog of things that I have to do that all in a

highly specified order I just I'm not quite sure what that order is yeah

delicately balanced it's like you're running a slalom course of hurdles not

having previously scoped out the track and none of yours and none of the

stride spacing is regular no so you're gonna need to jump off of both you know

either leg maybe both you're gonna be okay with running into hurdles and

falling down getting up and some of them have that puddle on the far side of

them oh yeah steeple chase is that what you're saying it might be a steeple

chase it might be hurdles but you can't know till you land no yeah yep nothing you

can't know nothing about nothing these days it's true but it's good it's it's

good for us I just told someone yesterday whenever you have this kind of a

schedule before you it's a good idea to think at the end of this we will have

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