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You made a really interesting point in here, and I'm going to just read from it. If my

house had been destroyed by fire, if my child had been run over, I could call on the church.

The church would be wonderful, but not this. I could not bear it. Gerald might be extremely

communicated and I would be humiliated and pitted. And then you also talk about a little

later on when some ladies from the Relief Society came to visit you, and they asked you how

you're doing, and you said, we're fine, we're all fine.

Oh yeah, we say that. And then you asked that question, did every woman in the ward who had a real heart

like lie about it like I was lying? Did we need so badly to look as bright and happy as the

perfect family on the front of the ensign that we smiled no matter what the cost?

I guess you didn't end the book this way, and we'll talk about the ending in a little while,

but you didn't end with this theme that the church wasn't there for you, but it's clear that

there were some ways in which the church just could not be there for you.

It can't be there for other people.

Right, in terms of dating with the issue, the church was not a resource for me, not at all.

But then, and I will be happy to talk about, you know, at the very end.

That's where Mormons come through, when there's physical stuff to be done, and often they can put

away their judgment and say, I don't get it, but sister Pearson needs us.

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