I want to experience like my highest joy at all time so if it's something that just doesn't sit right with me

Then it'll constantly eat at me and eat at me until I figure out some kind of way to make it happen

We think about our talents and we think about our gifts like those are two totally

different things and your talent is just like your skill set that's ultimately going to lead to the gift. It's not always

just self-esteem thing like you know she's wearing makeup to cover

this and she's wearing it maybe just because it might make her feel good. We

lose so much on looking for next that we miss the pieces and right now that we need to get to the next

thing. This is the secret lives of black women. I'm Lauren. I'm

I'm Charlotte and today we're talking self-expression.

Specifically talking about self-expression through the art of makeup,

which I will be honest and say that I have very little experience with.

I probably have, I would say I have moderate experience with it.

I don't think I'm, I tried to do the YouTube tutorials and that's a more in my modern life but I

I soon gave up they're just very intricate and very difficult. I'm a no. You're a step ahead of me. When my best

friends talk about makeup people they're just even in the group chat, they're just like,

Lauren, you don't know who this is.

Just ignore this part.

But for me, you know, I don't know, I feel like when I was a kid,

my first experience with makeup was getting like some Bonnie Bell lip

smoker and feeling like okay I've done it like this is makeup that's it my first

experience sadly was trying on my mom's makeup.

And the reason why that was sad and weird

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