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Hi Besties! Welcome back to Try Not To Care. It's your girl, Ashley. Thank you so much for being so patient

with me and allowing me to take the week off. My life has just been so chaotic and stressful,

but also I've been so busy and working my fucking ass off, and that's partially what I want to talk

about today. I am someone who is so quick to point out when I make a mistake or when I'm off track

or shit just isn't going right, but I struggle to acknowledge when I am putting in the work and

busting my ass and doing a good job. It's so easy for me to put myself down and not celebrate my

progress in private or around others, and I'm sure there's multiple reasons why I struggle with

recognizing my successes, but part of it I think is I have learned to minimize who I am and the

things that I do to make others comfortable. Over the years, I have shared things that I'm proud of

or I have accomplished and have been shut down by others, and not only that, but my entire life I've

been told I'm too cocky, I'm too confident, I'm too much, and I learned to keep a lot of the things

to myself in fear of looking or sounding a certain way. And in doing this, hiding parts of myself

a way to please others, it began to hurt the way I view myself and hurt who I was authentically.

There are so many things that I'm doing now that me a year ago would be ecstatic about.

I wouldn't have gotten to where I am with content creation without putting in all the hard work

that I have and making the hard decisions that I had to. Like for fuck's sake, I literally quit my

job a couple months ago to pursue content creation because it's been a dream of mine since I was little.

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