Porn Free Radio, episode 169. A few weeks back, I was invited to speak at my church's artist group,

and the title of the talk was, let us seek freedom from anything that blocks our creativity

and relationship with God. I shared a lot about this idea of resistance. Now, you might remember

this. I talked about this in episode 152, 153 and 154. I did a

series called Resistance and Recovery, in which I quoted Stephen Presfield from the War of Art.

And Stephen Pressfield has this quote, most of us have two lives, the life we live and the

unlived life within us. Between the two stands resistance.

And he develops this whole sort of mythology of resistance being the most toxic force

on the planet and it's the root of all unhappiness and it gets in the way of who we were made to be.

It was easy to talk about this in terms of creativity.

Here, you know, I'm talking about, you know, what are the things that block artists from creating

art?

As luck would have it, there's a guy in the group who's a videographer, a filmmaker. And he actually asked me how to the talk if he could film the talk.

And I was excited because this guy's a pro, and he brought his gear and he set it up in the back.

And so he was recording.

And this past week, he sent me the recording, the raw file of me. And I was eager to watch it

because I was curious about how it came across, what I did. I wanted to hear the talk again.

I was even thinking about maybe sharing part of it with the audience here. I don't know

either on my Facebook page or maybe just some of the audio in

porn free radio. But I was shocked by what I saw when it came back. Even though I had a great

experience and got great feedback from the people who were there, I wasn't happy with the way I

looked physically. I mean, I was wearing these fat boy cargo shorts and I had a 2x-L polo shirt on, untucked.

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