In the back of her mind, I do feel like there would have been fear of what he could do

if we did leave permanently, because often he wasn't in his right mind. So I guess you're not,

you're not dealing with a rational sane person if she's to say I'm leaving. She's dealing with

someone who's completely irrational. So I think that the times that she chose to stay, she really

legitimately felt like she was doing the best thing for us.

Welcome to how my parents raised me, I'm Dawn Chitty. When we are born, we arrive here as pure

and perfect souls, and the direction our life takes from that moment is deeply connected to what

our parents bring to our lives. And what our parents bring to our lives is deeply connected

to what their parents brought to their lives. And that's the cycle of families. I have always

craved connection with real and raw stories to understand what makes you you, what makes you the

absolutely unique human that you are. Stories are medicine for the soul, they can connect us

and they can change the world. And so in this podcast, I'm listening to beautiful souls

sharing their story. What happened to them, how they got through and how they have healed and

thrived despite everything to arrive right here in this moment. Content warning, if you are

triggered by the themes of this podcast, please seek a help line in your city.

Hey beautiful souls, we were having dinner with some friends this week and my partner,

Andrew was telling them how he can never find any of his stuff because it's always getting put

away. And I know this about myself, I've always had this need to have a really ordered, tidy,

clean space. It's definitely my way of keeping control of the chaos. So when the kids were

little, I'd always be tidying and cleaning or it's trying to keep control of my environment,

of the space that I live in. And that's definitely, I'm sure, a response to chaos and trauma because

taking control of the things that we can control is our way of calming our nervous system and making

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