Porn Free Radio, episode 154. This is our third episode, third and final episode of resistance

in recovery. And I wanted to start by sharing a quick story for my life that happened a couple

weeks ago. A couple weeks ago, I sat down to read a book on Tuesday. Now, I have a kind of a flexible work format. I mean,

I'm podcasting and coaching, and so I have these big open blocks of time where I'm writing or

reading. And I sat down to read a nonfiction book a couple weeks ago by one of my favorite authors. And as I was going through

this book, I realized there was a point where the author detailed a sexual encounter in the book.

Now, it wasn't illicit. It was for the narrative of the story. It was important. But it wasn't

the focal point of the book at all.

But I read it, and I remember reading it, kind of having this slight triggered feeling like,

should I be reading this? Is this good for me? Is the sun-sound activity? But I kind of shuffed it off.

I kind of thought, well, it's no big deal. I'm reading this book. Everything's fine.

So I finished the book.

Now, later that night, I realized I was aware of some sexual feeling, some arousal, just sort

of this energy in my body.

And I remember thinking, man, that's weird.

What's going on with me today? Am I just

exceptionally horny? And so I kind of made a half-hearted attempt to make kind of a pass at my wife and

kind of say, hey, can something happen tonight or what's going on with you? Well, it was late and she was

tired and it was really late. and she was tired and I mean,

it was really late. And she was like, you know, she kind of said no. And I kind of got it because

I was like, I didn't even really think this through. And she went to sleep and I was laying

there and I was wide awake. I had insomnia.

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