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The Slowdown: Poetry & Reflection Daily

1439: I Have Lost It by Monica Ferrell

The Slowdown: Poetry & Reflection Daily

American Public Media

Performing Arts, Arts

4.81.3K Ratings

🗓️ 21 January 2026

⏱️ 6 minutes

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Summary

Today’s poem is I Have Lost It by Monica Ferrell.


The Slowdown is your daily poetry ritual. In this episode, Maggie writes… “I’ve misplaced—or lost—many things in my life, but a few come to mind because losing them pained me. A few Polaroid pictures of a loved one who’s gone now. Some vintage clothes I was attached to. A long handwritten letter. At first, losing those irreplaceable items felt like losing the keys to that loved one, that place, that time. But I eventually realized the doors to those memories are still there — and to my surprise, they’re always unlocked. I can open them with my mind … my imagination … whenever I want. Do I wish I still had the things I treasured—the keys to those doors? Yes, of course I do. But I don’t need them.”


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Transcript

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0:00.0

I'm Maggie Smith, and this is the slowdown.

0:10.0

I'm a keeper, by which I mean I keep things.

0:25.1

I'm sentimental.

0:27.6

I squirrel away objects that are precious to me in drawers and boxes and file cabinets.

0:37.3

But sometimes I hide things so well, I lose them.

0:43.3

It's frustrating when I can't locate something and know I'm the only one to blame.

0:51.3

Maybe this has happened to you. The place you stash something is so safe. It's safe even from you.

1:02.6

I've misplaced or lost many things in my life, but a few come to mind because losing them pained me. A few Polaroid pictures of a loved

1:16.9

one who's gone now, some vintage clothes I was attached to, a long handwritten letter. At first, losing those irreplaceable items

1:31.4

felt like losing the keys to that loved one, that place, that time.

1:39.3

But I eventually realized the doors to those memories are still there, and to my surprise, they're

1:48.1

always unlocked.

1:50.1

I can open them with my mind, my imagination, whenever I want.

1:58.1

Do I wish I still had the things I treasured?

2:02.2

The keys to those doors?

2:04.9

Yes, of course I do.

2:07.4

But I don't need them.

2:11.0

Today's poem explores memory and loss

2:14.8

And how objects can help us resurrect the past.

2:21.7

I have lost it by Monica Farrell.

2:27.8

It's gone missing, that old note card with something crude written by a man once in a summer, I remember as terribly hot.

2:42.4

I read it, reclined outside in the park, paging through this huge volume he'd sent by special messenger to my address.

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