what would you say made you cheat? Was there anything in particular? No, it would be, I would say

every time it was me just completely not being honest with myself or the other person about

where I was at or what I needed also not knowing what would work or not work for me in a relationship

and then me not me doing people pleasing for sure in it and being and not saying if something didn't work for me and then me not, me not, me doing people pleasing for sure in it and being and not saying

if something didn't work for me and then me resenting the person, not communicating about it,

and then looking for an out.

That's what it was every time.

So it sounds like a lot of general little things.

Lots of general little things, yeah.

Because I feel like you date women and I know I'm straight, but it's like, if someone was to cheat on me, a lot of times, my first thought is like, what am I not giving this person sexually that they went to someone else for the sex?

But I think a lot of the times it's not only sexually stuff, it's other things that might just be little resentments and it's like looking for a hit of validation and I remember

talking to someone I was talking to a therapist about it and he was like here's the thing he's like when

you meet somebody new he's like that's a hit he's like that person is the benefit of being new

they haven't heard your stories they haven't seen you you know without your tooth like or whatever

whatever is going on like they haven't seen you

had up a bunch of bad shows or whatever it is like they see you when you're shiny and new and that

is a high because you get that validation of oh this person sees me like this i don't have to do the

work to then be like this let me just temporarily ride out for a couple months of having someone

look at me like that but the problem is you know, there's lots of problem there.

Also, one big one is it's not fair.

You're doing something, it's very wrong.

I mean, it's truly one of them.

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