imagine we're besties and we tell each other everything. Like nothing is off limits. All right?

Here we go. I'm going to tell you. Sometimes when I'm not doing well in life and I see other people on social media, for example, be very, very optimistic and joyful and happy. It irritates me. Yeah, I said it. I said it. You know, I never used to be like that until this last year when I was really struggling, struggling with grief, struggling with pain, struggling with anger, struggling with fear. I felt that way. And we're besties, so you can't judge me for saying that, okay? Cool. And while I don't think my feelings need a reason,

I'm going to give you the reason I think I felt that way this last year particularly. I think

the pain that I was dealing with, the fear, the grief that I was dealing with hit me harder

than anything I've ever dealt with in my entire life. And I think part of me was a little bitter.

Part of me was bitter that I had to go through what I was going through the loss of my stepdad,

some personal challenges, challenges and relationships. There was a number of different things I was

navigating and it just didn't feel fair. And I think because of that, I felt a little bitter at

people who seemed to have

it a little bit better than I did. Why me? And while I never try and sit in the seat of being a

victim, it was hard for me to see people's joy. It was hard for me to hear their optimism. And I just

want to acknowledge if you have felt that way, maybe it's,

maybe you're, you know, you watch me on social media and I'm talking about food freedom and I'm

talking about, you know, being confident in your own skin. And something about it just gets under

your skin. You're irritated. Maybe you just want it more than anything and you don't know

how to get there. And it's frustrating to hear people live it because you want it so bad and you're not there. I want you to know if you felt that way. You're not alone. I've actually had people who have unfollowed me on social media and then come back a year later or five months, six months later, and followed me again. And they've

messaged me and literally said, it was too hard for me to follow you because I just wasn't there

yet. I just, I felt so much resistance. And I knew what you were saying was right. I could feel

the conviction that I needed to change my ways. But I just wasn't ready. I wasn't ready.

And now I'm ready. So I'm here and, you know, I'm ready to join your course or whatever it is.

I've had that, I've had that situation happen a number of times. And, you know, I know that to be true in my own life.

I have, I'm going to share with you a story about taking the leap and how transformative it

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