Somewhere I went from pursuing wellness to hacking my body, all of it, and this is what I'm only just realizing.

Every bit of it comes from a space where I understand that I'm just not good enough the way that I am.

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Hey, you're on air with Ella, and it's me, Ella. It's a solo episode today. So wherever we are together right now, I'm so glad that you are sharing this moment of your day with me.

And I know things have been a little nutty lately. Mother Nature has just been like off the

chain all over the world. And I just hope wherever you are that you're feeling peaceful.

And what gives me peace right now is just being utterly grateful for having this time with you. So

hi and thank you for being here with me right now. I have not been nervous since probably the very

first time I ever recorded an episode, probably three years maybe. It's been since I've been

nervous to get on the mic here and talk with you guys

and today I'm nervous I'm not sure that I should be doing this episode I promised you an episode

I talk big and then I have to like you know do it execute but I shared with you recently that I would do an episode on my

disordered and dysfunctional relationship with food. And it's been a long, long,

dysfunctional relationship that I've had. It's probably my longest, most dysfunctional relationship.

I don't know whether that's good or bad.

And I feel so confused right now, like, is this the right thing to do? And why would anybody

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