My boyfriend Ben and I just celebrated our four-year anniversary.

When we were out for dinner last Friday, I leaned over the table and said,

it doesn't really feel like four years, does it?

Out of those four years, two of them were long distance. And those are two years that I tend to block out. But when I was making this episode, I remembered that I had randomly recorded a series of Skype conversations between us during this time.

You know, I'm practicing my hiking skills so that we can hike together.

I'm doing this for you.

I'm not doing this for you. I'm not doing this for you, I'm doing this for us. And no reaction.

Even though I'm laughing, long And no reaction.

Even though I'm laughing, long distance was never ideal. There were lots of awkward silences, gestures that Skype could never translate.

Uncertain see you later, parties where I had to show up alone,

and moments when I was telling people that I had a boyfriend,

but I really didn't feel like I did.

While this time gave a space to grow, we always wanted it to end. The question was, when would it?

You're listening to millennial, a podcast about maneuvering your 20s captured in real time.

Today, we're bringing you a special Valentine's Day episode.

It's about a long-distance relationship

between two people who lived 4,500 miles apart.

Flying from Berlin to Kentucky

over the course of 10 years,

they also had to decide, when would this end?

The end of this real life romantic comedy will give you goosebumps and make you do a double take.

Into the closet.

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