What's up? It's Major.

Today's episode is hosted by poet and slowdown producer Micah Kielbond.

Don't worry. I'll be back on November 25th.

I'm Micah Keelban, and this is the slowdown.

I've been trying to change my relationship to some of my memories, mainly those tied to situationships, to the

fits and starts of love. I've been mostly single in my adult life, continually falling into

what I believe is love, only to feel like I'm having the rug pulled out from under me.

I have experienced a whole lot of life,

and romance only forms threads of that life,

woven into all the other moments.

The threads are often short.

They have loose ends.

I've always been jealous of the length, the strength of other people's

threads. I live in a tightly wound world. I often run into people I once made out with, dated briefly,

or caught a glimmer of possibility with over a beer in a lifetime that feels distant,

even if I'm standing in the exact same physical place. What I struggle with, what I've struggled

with for years, is naming the importance of the relationships I've had with people that don't

fit neatly into a

category. Romance and desire and longing pull us into odd positions. They pull us into dawn on

the way home from another's bed to shower before going into work underslept. They pull us into books and movies we never would have known.

They pull us into staring at the moon just to look for meaning.

Even if the feelings are fleeting, these odd positions change us.

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