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🗓️ 6 February 2019
⏱️ 12 minutes
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"Motherhood, for me, over the past three and a half months, has involved a lot of waves. I’ve ridden them and at times I’ve been drowning. Other times I'm treading water and managing to stay afloat, no matter how exhausted I’ve been. And other times, I’ve been getting along like I actually know how to swim! Right now, though, in this very moment, I’m on the drowning side of things."
It's been a tricky week. So this is a quick check-in to say hi, and to [kind of] explain why I just didn't get it together to get a "real" episode out this week. Forgive me? Thanks! There's a lot of good stuff to come on the Ali on the Run Show — I just need to take a few deep breaths first!
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0:00.0 | Hi! Welcome to the Alley on the Run Show. I know no intro music, no sponsor spot, what is going on. |
0:10.0 | I'm just popping in here for a quick one today by myself unscripted, which is always a little risky, |
0:16.0 | but I just wanted to say I'm taking a little break this week. I don't know if it counts as a break if I'm still releasing this little episode, |
0:24.0 | but yes, this counts. I'm taking a break. The truth is I just didn't get it together this week. I didn't get an episode with a kick-ass guest ready in time, |
0:34.0 | and the truth is for all the times in the past month that I've said things have gotten easier, and I'm no longer drowning. |
0:43.0 | This past week I've been drowning. Motherhood for me over the past three and a half months, it's involved what I call a lot of waves. |
0:53.0 | And I've ridden them, and at times I've been drowning. Other times I would say I've been treading water and kind of managing to stay afloat, no matter how exhausted I've been. |
1:04.0 | And then other times, other times I think I'm getting along like I actually know how to swim. |
1:11.0 | But right now, in this moment I am on the drowning side of things. So this week, and maybe next week I don't know yet, I'm just going to take a little break, |
1:21.0 | a little step back. Something I never did right after Annie was born and still haven't done, and now it's catching up with me. |
1:29.0 | I have a lot of commitments on my calendar coming up, things that I enthusiastically said yes to, like right after Annie was born. |
1:37.0 | These are work things, big things, exciting things, and now they're all things that I really want to cancel for my own sanity. |
1:45.0 | But I can't because I committed to them, and I'm a professional, and I don't want to mess with some great relationships, but that is something that's stressing me out. |
1:53.0 | So when I say I'm taking a break, I'm actually not totally taking a break. I'm just shifting focus for a little bit. |
2:00.0 | And people like to preach about balance, and I'm sure you've heard my husband Brian and I both talk about how we don't believe in balance, and that's so easy to say. |
2:10.0 | But I think I have been striving for some kind of balance and failing at it. So something's got to give, and this week, this is what it is. |
2:20.0 | I also got sick this week. It started as a little wimpy cold that turned into a big, I can't breathe cold and eventually manifested itself somewhere like in my stomach and a suffigus. |
2:33.0 | And a suffigus is kind of a gross word, I think. I don't know why, but I don't know what's going on with my body. I don't think it was a stomach flu that's already passed. |
2:43.0 | I'm definitely not pregnant. So honestly, I'm going to say it's stress. Stress manifesting itself in as many ways as it possibly can until I give it the attention that it's clearly seeking. |
2:57.0 | So yeah, I'm saying I want to take a step back. I do need to reflect. I do need to do better. I don't really know what that means or how I'm going to do that. |
3:07.0 | I just know I need to get out of my own head out of this routine. I'm trying so desperately to create maybe away from the internet for a little bit. That's hard to do when it's part of my job, but I think that might be good for me. |
3:21.0 | Now, I can say with certainty. Yeah, I can say with certainty that on the Annie Front so much has become easier. For so long, I was afraid of my baby. |
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