This is Jockel Podcast number one, oh wait, with Echo Charles and me, Jockel Willink.

Good evening, I go.

Good evening.

Goodbye.

You do not get to say goodbye.

It is the way it goes. In this line of work, you do not get to say goodbye.

One day your friend is there, your brother, your shared experiences and shared pain and

shared thoughts. One day your friend is there to share those things and then they're

gone.

Of course we think we are all going to live forever and then by the bullet or the bomb

or the ocean or the sky, they are gone. The memories are there, but they are not enough.

They are not enough because the story was not complete.

There was more. There was so much more and now there is not. And there cannot be.

And I did not say goodbye. Not once. I did not get to tell you the things I should have

told you. I did not say the words. Not even a thank you.

But you knew because as I knew you knew and that is good and I am thankful.

But we did not finish the story. The story was not yet complete.

So now I finish it alone. I will do my best but the story will fall short without you

in it. But I will do my best. I will. One last thing. Thank you. And goodbye.

And I wrote down those words thinking about a question that I got asked the question

was as an operator, I know you lost many brothers. I lost my wife to cancer.

My question is how do you deal with the inevitable flashbacks and the toughest moments?

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