Hello, my beautiful people and welcome back to the Moments Podcast. This is actually part

two of last week's episode where we talked about love and boys and relationships,

situations, being vulnerable, opening your heart, all that jazz. So if you didn't listen

to last week's, I highly encourage you to do so. I actually really enjoyed recording that

episode and think that it has a lot of value and a lot of good points and hopefully some good

advice to take away from. But yeah, this is part two, so we'll just jump right into it.

All right, I've recollected my thoughts. I really, really like this one because it really

strongly applies to everything that I felt in the beginning of my relationship and I still feel

now like what to do with the fear of someone leaving you or things ending horribly.

In the beginning of the relationship, I want to say the first three months. If you would have asked

me like, oh, what are you going to do if he does this to you or if this ends badly? I would have

been like, well, I'm going to figure it out. I'm going to take care of myself and I'm going to

pop my shit. You know, that's the kind of mindset I have. I just didn't care. I'm like, if someone

shows me who they are and things end badly, I don't give an F. It is what it is. Now that I can

confidently say, I love someone with my whole being unconditionally, I constantly have this fear

of what if things go badly and what if something goes wrong and what if I lose everything that we've

built or I have to start over. Obviously, these are like really big, heavy conversations to think

about when I'm in a seven-month relationship. It's not like I'm talking four years here, five years,

but still, I do think our relationship is super elevated and I 100% see myself marrying him and

would love to do so. I get so giddy when I say that. We talk about it all the time. Is that a bad

thing? I don't know. Point is, I always worry. I'm like, I don't know what I would do myself.

I would be heartbroken. I would deal with my breakup horribly, but it is like a subconscious,

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