So not too long ago, I guess this year, I went through this season, this kind of, I don't

know, it was a strange season in my life where I just, felt off.

Maybe you've had those kind of seasons where it's just like, I don't know.

I remember just being pretty low, I guess, is maybe the best way I can say it.

And I remember asking myself the question, am I just tired?

Is that what's going on right now?

I realized as I kept like investigating, digging down, deep into the heart, I was like, no,

there's something more.

And I don't want to be dramatic about it.

But I guess the one word I would say is that I went through this season where I just,

felt defeated.

I don't know if you've ever had those seasons in life, maybe those moments in your life

where you're just like, that's how you feel.

You just, you just feel defeated.

You know, we started this series last week called Learning to Lose because we have this

truth about life and we realize we know that life is about losing.

The life is the process of repeated loss.

And because life is as process to grow is to lose, to be alive is to lose.

And so because of that, we realized that one of the tasks of life is to learn how to

lose well.

So I've been looking at this season and I just realized, you know, this season where

I was just feeling sort of defeated, it wasn't just one loss, it wasn't just a couple

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