Oh my gosh. Welcome to another episode of Natalia Benson, the podcast. I haven't said that in a while.

It has been a minute since I have been with each of you.

And to say I have missed you is an understatement.

And to say that I truly needed the break that I took from recording from all of the things like for those of you who are

brand new. I started this podcast in 2018 with an iPhone mic. By the time I completed recording,

which was just March of this year, I think we had

surpassed about maybe 1.4 million downloads, which is incredible. And I am so, so grateful to you,

beauties for being on this journey with me. Now, as some of you know, I had to take a step back. And I'm so grateful and

frankly, very proud of myself for listening to that prompting. Because if I had known what was

coming in my life, oh, man, I mean, the good news is that I had therapy this morning with my therapist, Tina.

I've been with her for a very, very long time.

So truth be told, I've gotten my deepest, deepest cries out for the day. But for those of you who

do not know and maybe are wondering why I've come back with this three episode mini series,

the Saturn series. Very simply, I just lost my father. And this year has been absolutely cataclysmic in a lot of ways.

So I think what I just want to say first is for all of you who reached out to me, who just acknowledged the bravery that it took just to

trust myself and to say no when it just felt out of alignment and out of integrity for me

to continue recording every single week or twice a week or twice a

month or whatever I was doing at the time. I just want to say thank you so much. And in addition,

if you are brand new to me, this is what it's like to be friends with me. Like just dive into

the deepest end of the pool because this series is really here to reflect

how much I have changed this year, but really to give me an opportunity to speak into

the woman that I am becoming because of the deep challenges that I've experienced, really since

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