The I do remember I was

I was at home that day and I heard you on the phone but I can tell that

something was wrong.

How could you tell?

Just what you said I think you said I could kill him or something like that.

You were really upset with the guy that was driving the car.

And I heard it and I said, oh, let me go up and see how the things are going.

And when I got up there you were laying on the bed, prone, face down, and you said,

I forgot the kid's name, but so-and-so killed Alicia.

I said what?

I said what do you mean?

He said he was driving the car and he ran into a pole and he said I could kill him.

And then you sort of sat up and he just punched a big hole in the wall and I knew at that

point you were really upset so I stayed up there with you and we just talked and

then you said you need to go out and just get some fresh air.

So I let you go and you walked around and came back.

So yeah, that was that day.

I think of my junior year of high school

as the year when life got real, because that's the year when death got real.

The voice you just heard was my dad talking about the day I found out my best friend

Alicia had died in a car accident. I know people lose people all the

time. I know kids lose people all the time, but this is when it happened to me. Nothing for me ever compared to that first time that I learned

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