You got problems that you ought to be concerned with, blah, you don't know how you're supposed to earn it or what to do with it or how to keep it.

You're a freak with a dark shameful secret, but you're not the only one who can teach your hidden financial fears to the blessed son.

Now your healing has begun, it's bad with money with Gabby.

Hey, I'm still Gabby done and I'm still very bad with money.

So, in 2009, I got an internship at the Daily Show and that was a dream come true and it was incredible and I had literally written a very embarrassing essay in high school about how my dream was to work at the Daily Show.

It's in some kind of book of like best high school writing, 2006, so if you can find that, burn it.

It was a dream job. It was a New York City and it was for the summer and the problem was that it was unpaid, it was unpaid internship so I was getting college credit to be there.

However, it was a 40-hour week job and I wasn't making any money.

And so, I started ponding stuff in order to pay my rent.

One time I like pond some speakers, I pond a ring and then I eventually ran out of stuff and I called my parents and I told them I had to quit the internship and I had to move home.

They were like, wait, wait, no, like maybe we can do something and I was like, there's no option.

It ended up that my grandmother, I had a phone call with her where I was sitting on the street in the West Village like hysterically crying on the street which is a thing that only really happens in New York.

In LA we cry in our cars like dignified people but in New York you cry openly on the street and I sat down on the ground which gross and I cried hysterically into the phone and she gave me a little bit of money that she had.

And I am forever grateful that she did that because I was able to stay and finish the internship.

I don't honestly know where she got that money. It was like a miracle.

And I could never repay her for that.

The hardest part of it was this feeling that I was going to fail at something that I knew I could be great at just because I was broke.

So like anyone else, like how was anyone else staying at the internship? Why were the other interns there? Like how come I was the one that had to go home?

You know it's not because I'm not talented or hardworking or hilarious. You guys have heard the podcast and I'm very funny.

It's because you can bust your ass and be all those things and still at the end of the day you don't have any money.

So in that moment you feel like you don't get to ask for help. You feel like your only choice is to give up.

And you know if you were whacked out on drugs or lost in depression or anything like that people would say just go to a therapist.

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