What happens to relationships after one partner is diagnosed with a personality disorder?

I have schizioid personality disorder. I'm 48. I've not dated since 1992.

If she hadn't asked me, I probably would never have dated, but my curiosity got the best of me.

I'm also chronically unemployed. I've never been able to keep a job, mostly because I don't build relationships with my coworkers. School was a disaster, probably for the same reason. I don't

seem to be interested in things the way other people are, so I'm impossible to motivate.

I was recently diagnosed with the void and personality disorder. I'm 28. I grew up with the message

that intimacy equals surrendering all control to the other

person, and I was never able to trust my parents or family members, because I knew they were

more concerned about themselves than me. As an adult, I've always tended to lose myself in relationships.

I've lost sight of my own wants and needs and form myself around the wants and needs of my friends

and partners, whilst feeling resentful for being unable to show the real me to anyone. Currently, I have

no real friends because I find that crap exhausting, and I have a boyfriend, but I hate the way

I absorb his values and opinions, and I miss being in touch with my true self, like when I'm

single. I desperately want to have meaningful

relationships in my life, but I can't seem to escape the impulse to become subservient to whomever

I allow close to me, and I end up resenting them as their identities take hold of me. I don't

want to be alone, but alone is the only way I feel in control of myself. I can't say I'm a success

story because I only recently received this diagnosis, and I still have a lot to work on, but at least I know what I'm dealing with now, and for me, success will consist of learning how to actually share my true thoughts and feelings and opinions with people, which is really freaking hard. I need to learn to trust myself even when others disagree with me. I think I have a long road ahead.

For those of you wondering whether you have this disorder, if you have a history of trauma,

it certainly increases the likelihood.

Everyone is different, though, and these are just my personal experiences.

If you're identifying with the symptoms, my advice would be to find a good therapist

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