My struggle was I held onto a lot of the things from my childhood and I thought it helped me.

Like seeing my mom struggle and all that like I was like I got to work hard because I got to take care of her right I felt that

Yeah, and and I didn't realize until later, but I had a lot of anxiety, where I didn't feel okay, so I was like, I got to go work, I got to go do stuff. I can't sit down and just be still because for some reason I felt like I'm

a lose it all or something bad's gonna happen so I thought that was normal yeah and then

after I became somewhat successful I'm like damn like I still feel anxious all

the time what's wrong with that though? There's nothing, it depends. It depends, it depends,

it depends, hold out, I'll think what's wrong with it. To me, you just sound like a gee, man.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. You sound like a bad ass. I know, that's why I would ask you this.

But the problem that I face sometimes is like, let's say I'm chilling with my daughter and my son.

This is, we're chilling, we're watching, Paul Patrol, whatever.

And I am like, like not okay.

I am anxious to where I can't even enjoy my life.

And Paul Patrol is a good show.

Like it's a good message for the children.

Like these little animals, they get together and they do, they're doing good in their community.

Yeah.

Yeah, so it's a great show.

Have you ever experienced stuff like that?

Okay.

No, super random.

Yeah, no, no, I got you saying, First of all, I don't think that anxiousness ever goes away, like I, I'm, I, I remember when I was really going hard, it wasn't like I was trying to get rich, I was out running poverty.

Yeah. I feel like it's always because me and you are always going to have that because we know

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