Alicia never expected to wind up in a fertility clinic because she never thought she'd want to have children.

She grew up in Jamaica with a lot of responsibilities for her siblings.

So I am one of five, the second of said five, but I'm the first girl.

And in my culture, you are required to help your mommy out like you don't have a

say-so in it and so bottles were done by me laundry was done by me since I was nine years old and I hated

every last part of it. So I always told myself when I got a holder I didn't

want kids and the sad part about that is I think the tongue is so, it's powerful so you got to be very careful with what you said.

What do you mean? I think because of, I'm having chills, because all my life I've said I didn't want kids that I spoke that into existence.

Now for a lot of people that that doesn't like you, it's not real to them.

For me, it is real, like, so that's why I mean

when I say the tongue is powerful because I kept telling myself

that I know one children and I feel whoever I prayed to listen to me and then when I wanted children I was in a

position where my only way of having kids was via IVF.

Alicia was in her 20s when she decided she wanted to have children.

She was in a relationship then, with the man who would become her husband,

someone she met when she moved to the U.S.

She tried to get pregnant and nothing was happening and eventually she

learned that her fallopian tubes were blocked. Did you at that moment when you

were like you know finding out that that your tubes were blocked that there was an

issue with your tubes is that the thought you had then like I sort of spoke this

into existence or I willed it yes definitely I told myself that I blamed myself and that's another thing too it's like I

always blame myself after that.

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