He would always like tell me before he started you know like I'm going to get my anger out.

And then I started feeling cold blood.

And I instantly pulled the visor down and look because we were in the car.

And my face was just, it was bloody. I get awakened by like at 2 53 in the morning and I would just never forget that time. I get up and I go check on her and I see the most horrible thing that any parent could ever see.

My body started feeling like I was catching on fire.

He's been in prison maybe like five times and he's

on his way back. And having kids on my own I would never be easier to understand why my mom

treated me the way she treated me.

Like if I have to lose my daughter like just give me peace with it.

They went to go look to see what was happening and that's when they discovered a clock

that formulated in my way and stopped all blood flow.

So basically I was brain dead.

Life has a crazy way of humbling you.

You don't want to learn a lesson twice that you could have weren't the first time.

Like I literally had to make a decision, am I going to give up and quit?

Because something happened that I didn't even think could ever happen to me,

or am I going to continue to fight and push forward and make life or sense of life or something that I can hold on to and grass to which is my fade.

That dash that's on your funeral program like that's what matters the most not not the day you were born not the day you die but what you do in between and the impact that you have on others.

What we think is what we become.

I'm so serious.

You have to speak life until yourself.

Because I was able to forgive, I was able to let go of an apology that I wasn't going to get until it was the right time.

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