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Hello, welcome to or welcome back to Trinidad to Care.

It's a couple days after the election.

It's the Friday before you listen to this episode when it drops.

And I had given myself a couple days off from work and from the podcast to just mourn and grieve

and feel everything that I've been feeling.

Just allow myself to be angry and upset and feel everything.

And I thought I gave myself enough time.

But as I'm sitting down here, I've cried

like three different times. Luckily, the last recording of me like literally sobbing for whatever reason,

it didn't pick up on the microphone. So I had to re-record this. So I'm a lot more composed now.

But this week has just been really, really hard for me and it was difficult for me to pinpoint

why this feeling that I've been feeling, like the anger that I've been feeling, the disgust

I've been feeling the heartbreak I've been feeling is so different than anything I felt

in the past. You know, I've been depressed and I've gone through heartbreak and I've gone through hard times, but this just felt like I genuinely feel like I got the wind knocked out of me.

And I'm not going to get too into that today.

It just feels wrong.

And it's such a loss for women and for other marginalized communities and for our education system

and our democracy and just everything. Such a huge loss. And I know that there's some people that

aren't going to agree with me and they're not going to like hearing me say that. You know,

I've already lost so many followers on social media for speaking my

mind because a bitch loves a speaker mind. But if you're struggling this week, if you feel the way that I

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