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The New York Times

Stories of Love, Laws, and Redemption

I'm your host, Megna Chacrabardi

This month, we're revisiting some of our favorite episodes of Modern Love The Podcast

that have been adapted for television. This week, we'll go back to a story by Terry Cheney.

It's about dating while living with bipolar disorder. It's episode three of The Amazon Show.

Actor Rebecca Hall, red Terry's essay for the podcast back in 2016.

You may know Rebecca as Vicki in Vicki Christina Barcelona. She also stars in the upcoming thriller The Nighthouse.

As a bipolar woman, I've lived much of my life in a constant state of becoming someone else.

The precise term for my disorder is ultra-radian rapid cyclone,

which means that without medication, I am at the mercy of my own spectacular mood swings.

Up for days, charming, talkative, effusive, funny, and productive,

but never sleeping and ultimately hard to be around.

Then down, and essentially immobile, for weeks at a time.

This darkness started for me in high school, when I simply couldn't get out of bed one morning.

No problem except I stayed there for 21 days.

As this pattern continued, my parents, friends, and teachers grew concerned.

But they just thought that I was eccentric.

After all, I remained a stellar student, never misbehaved and graduated as class valedictorian.

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