Here we are my friends episode three five one of the Robcast and this one is called still the son of a judge and in many ways this episode is a follow-up to the last episode the son of a judge

because

I had I had no idea

What was coming last episode? I told you about my dad dying and going to Michigan

for the funeral and the burial and

What that was like and now it's been a couple of months and I

Had I just had no idea grief

Grief has no regard for our timetables. I think I thought

I'm trying to like read you know when you like go back through and retrace your mental steps

I think I was under the assumption that

That grief if you if you're at all tuned in or healthy in any way grief passed to pass through you so you just allow it and

then it gradually dissipates and you sort of

Go on with things, but I will on the most random

days

At times that seem to have nothing to do with my father

be

overwhelmed with grief tears. I'm literally in the middle of the night will be woken up

With like the seven several times with like oh, he's gone

Which which I know cognitively and yet suddenly it hits in some completely other way. Oh, he's not

Here and I know and I know lots of you know exactly what I'm talking about

It's the most basic truths of this person was here now

They're not and yet at the strangest times

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