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All right, Cassie, so you decided you were going to make a decision on your birthday, man.

Should you have one? She just let it go. What are you going to do? You're going to celebrate? You're not going to celebrate? I'm having a really big birthday this weekend. I am turning 40. And I've mentioned it a lot because I'm doing exposure therapy on myself. Because 40 is the age of my parents in my head. Like I distinctly remember my dad's 40th surprise party.

It was an overth surprise party.

It was an over the hill party at my best friend's house.

And it is weird to think that I am that age.

And I am not over the hill.

I reject that notion.

So I'm trying to like normalize it.

But and if you listen to the bonus content we we dropped today on bonus BS, it really,

I came on to talk about one thing and it took a drastic tearful turn and talking about this.

And Kristen, you brought up something was like, and you were like, you were in the same place

a couple of years ago as I am, except it was with your dad. My mom passed away. And I just,

I don't feel like celebrating. And honestly,

I had been dragging my feet on planning this birthday. And that should have been my like sign that

something was up. But I was low key dreading it. And that's not how you should feel about a

celebration. And so I really sat with it because I was like, I've been looking forward to my 40th

birthday though. as much as I

hate the number feels weird to this big celebration for a long time and just everything sort of

started going I won't say wrong because it didn't go wrong it just wasn't planning coming to fruition

like I had wanted it to and I feel like I was trying to fit a square peg in a round hole. And I'm like, well, it's my birthday. I got to celebrate. We'll just do it the weekend after instead of my actual birthday weekend. And I kept trying to make it work and just not feeling into it, not feeling excited about it, low-key dreading it. And so I made the decision. I canceled my own birthday party. You did? I did. I canceled it. And I don't regret it at all. And I'm so glad, Chris, and you've said something to you because it really gave me, I don't know if it's the courage or the freedom or the okay to like make that choice for myself. You didn't need permission to do it. I think we get so caught up in what we're supposed to do, what we're supposed to look like, what we're supposed to say, what we're supposed to do. And like when it comes to our birthdays, like, especially when it's a milestone birthday like you're having, that, you know, you just you just you know put on a smile and you

you know fake it till you make it kind of thing and no man it's your birthday and you get to celebrate

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