Hi my name is Lewis Howes and welcome to the Daily Motivation Show.

You mentioned you know you get to when you're on stage you get to I guess

unload your traumas and talk about all these insecurities or fears or love that

you have in your heart at that moment and you mentioned you used to hate yourself in some ways what was the thing your

in some ways, and you mentioned you used to hate yourself in some ways.

What was the thing you used to hate about yourself the most?

And when did you start to love yourself in a more full authentic way? I think a lot of times in my life it was it was I think from this this place of I don't want to like blame it so much on like religious

situations, but I think some things growing up were just kind of like it was it was

meant to be modest into yourself and hold things in and not letting anybody know what was going on and if there was anything kind of going on in our family, we're also tight-knit.

So it's like you just kind of like, you gotta have to look perfect as a pastor or something, you know, and those guys are also going through things

and sometimes they're not there's there's not people that they go to and just can say like

you know I'm falling apart here or like I'm struggling with thoughts of suicide or something,

you know, there maybe is a pastor going through that,

you know, and it's like,

and they can't talk about that openly with somebody

or they can't talk about certain mental health situations

that they got going on because they have to be the

God is the answer and I'm my life is perfect because I'm so close to God and and it's

and it's just it doesn't work like and I think there's just a lot of things in my life

that I kind of held in and kind of kept in and things that I was insecure about.

Was it a shame or was it insecurity or was it guilt?

All of that stuff, you know, all of that stuff I think came in and I mean not and I won't just play with all on religious things but I think it's

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