We've all seen pictures of what happens when people who try to cross the world in search of a better life

gets stopped along the way,

overcrowded dinghies intercepted in the sea, the squaller of refugee or detention camps. But what happens after that to the many people who

make the very painful decision to give up and go home? I'm Tim Huell and I've been to West Africa to try to find out.

I'm afraid to go and see my mommy. I'm afraid to see my aunt, my little brother, he told me you should not even come home.

The stigma is killing me slowly.

In Sierra Leone, trying to get to Europe illegally,

against all the odds is called the Temple Run.

That's after the video game where you run and run for your life.

On that desperate journey, as in the game, there's no going back.

They call it temple wrong

because when you are going you don't turn back

because when you turn back you die.

Over the last few years thousands of young Sierra Leoneans have made the temple run.

Hundreds have died, drowned in the sea or starved in the desert.

A lucky few have reached Europe, but most have done what

you're never ever supposed to do. They've turned back and the shame is unbearable.

I was so happy to come back but I wish I did not.

I have come back home with nothing.

The way people look at me is like a hell for me. It's like a hell.

I was even afraid to come back. I was even afraid because I was thinking I will my mom be with me what will my mom say to me.

For assignment here on the BBC World Service this is Sierra Leone

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