Lemonnotta.

I'm thinking about shame.

I've been thinking a lot about shame this week. The press release for this podcast, Hard Feelings, came out and I was so excited for you

guys to hear about this podcast. I was so excited. I knew you guys were going to be excited and it just was like such a joyous experience. I feel I have judgment around the word joyous.

I'm realizing as I say it I felt like yikes.

Like I felt my ass cheeks clench when I said joyous.

God, but I also mean it. I have self-judgment around it and I mean it. It was a joyous celebratory, even celebratory,

it's getting worse. It was a joyous celebratory experience that I couldn't wait.

I couldn't wait for the announcement, right?

And one of the things that's really important to me in press,

if possible, is that I, Carly Carly or Sam and Cat are not mentioned.

These show titles you guys?

My ears burn when I when I'm saying them. I have so much shame around having been a part of them

and anybody who's read my book I know understands, to try and summarize it for those of you who haven't.

It's like, imagine, you know, I started working on Nettloni when I was, I think we take the pilot

when I was maybe 13 and the show, then we started taping the show when I was 14. But you know to have been

known for so long for something that I did when I was 13 was very shameful for me.

Imagine, for example, whatever you were doing,

you were 13, you know, acting in your school play of Peter Pan or playing clarinet just god-offly.

And imagine if you were known for that.

Everywhere you went for the rest of your life.

If you can't board a plane without 15 people coming up to you on the plane

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