Got in a lot of trouble in and out of jail. Nobody could trust me. Family hated seeing me come. Because you I was going to still lie, cheat.

I went to prison my last time in prison in

in 2000 in 2013. 13. I decided that I had to change my life.

I had to change my life.

Something had to change. I had a behavior problem that I didn't know how to

manage or control and I hated myself. I could not stand the woman I seen in the mirror.

Welcome to the Experience Jesus Calling Podcast.

Today we speak with Janie Elkins, a graduate of The Next Door, a faith-based rehabilitation center in Nashville, Tennessee.

Janie grew up in an abusive household which pointed her down a rough road of addiction and substance abuse.

Janie's search for real love in her life came up empty time and time again as she fell

into toxic relationships and sought to numb her pain through drugs.

Here's Janie to share her story.

My name is Janie Okins, and I graduated from the next door, February 27th, 2015.

I was born in Kentucky and when I was three,

we moved to southwest Virginia.

My dad was a coal miner. I have four sisters. It was rough in my house.

Four men all my sisters. When I was probably 12, I think my first thing

I started with was an eating disorder.

And then, um, what long after that I started drinking and smoking pot and was filling that void that I had. All the people that I hung, had,

that I hung with that got high,

I thought they loved me, you know,

and they didn't condemn me

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