I just kind of moved in with him instantly because it was the solution to my life.

And it felt like this is the jackpot right now.

I have a place I can crash and it's close to the casino.

I have cocaine.

And I have some guy that is into me.

I was in a halfway house and my world just felt so small. and I have some guy that is into me.

I was in a halfway house and my world just felt so small.

There was no vision of having a normal life.

I didn't really make goals for myself or anything because I really felt like he was going to find me and kill me.

In my purity document, I was like, I promise that I'm not going to hang out with a boy alone.

I promise that I'm going to find an accountability partner and I'm going to check in with them

every single week about my purity and my thoughts. I promised to not masturbate.

When she asked me what the cult was that I was a part of, I told her Bethel and her face fell. I was in court for child abuse on my 11th birthday.

I remember going in the chambers speaking to the judge and he said, well, you look fine to me.

I don't see any marks.

And it was so, so dismissive.

So if a judge doesn't believe me, I don't stand a chance.

I want her to listen to it, and I want her to hear every single thing she did.

Do you know what she used to always say to me? Whenever I was leaving the house, she would say, keep your mouth shut, what happens in this house, stays in this house,

loose lips, sink ships.

So I'm going to write her a letter that says loose lips, sink ships.

And that's it.

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