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What I learned about myself today, and one of the reasons I'm so grateful for these pets,

they really help me learn about myself every day because they truly are a reflection of your energy in the time that you put into them.

So they kind of let you know when you're being an asshole because they'll be an asshole back, right?

So today, what I learned is I'm not as fun to be around when I'm trying to make content all the time.

We're doing stuff involving social media, consuming it, or trying to make it.

And I've known that for a long time, but what kind of, and not kind of sucks, what really, really fucking sucks about being an artist in this kind of like TikTok and social media era is,

it feels like there's no other option than to do it. So it's like the thing that I love the most, that it's like truly the reason I live.

Like it's that thing where you're just like, yes, this is why I was put on this earth I need to use this thing that I feel that I can like create and hopefully reach people.

And if I can do that, then I can actually have like some type of real influence, you know.

I can't go on that tangent right now. It's just the world is so fucked up.

And it's a bummer that not more people who can do shit, like do shit.

And I just want to be able to like do big shit. So like, this is why I don't stop when it gets like very frustrating.

Like I've had this battle for a while where like, I just can't do anything but like music.

If I want to be happy, that's what I'm saying, by the way, like of course, like, get a job, you know, like not everybody has the luxury of like doing what they want.

Like we have to work just to like, I get it. I'm just searching for my own personal happiness and my own personal happiness would be to be able to create all day and support myself.

So in order to do that, like, you have to use fucking social media, which is the thing that I hate the most.

So it's like, do I push myself into the thing that makes me more unhappy than anything else on this planet in order to do the thing that I love the absolute most.

Or do I let go of the thing that I want to do the absolute most and live with more peace and solitude, I guess.

But like, that's just not an option to me. Oh fuck.

Anyways, what I've learned today is that I just can't do the social media thing. So I feel like I finally found like my goal.

I've been kind of wondering what that is, like what is my goal? I just want to be successful enough in my music career that I can sustain it without pushing it so much on social media.

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