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Hi, my name is Roxana and my American friends call me Roxana.

I was going to graduate school on the East Coast and graduate school ended.

I was active in my addiction with alcoholism.

I totally hit bottom.

At that period in my life, my family was in the Midwest.

I come from a Muslim family, so there was nobody who drank or did drugs and so I really

had to deal with this on my own.

I had a boyfriend I was living with at the time and it was like a super toxic relationship

that got even more toxic when I tried to get sober, so I had to move out.

I was in the city by myself trying to get sober, just at a graduate school.

I was a highly functioning addict slash alcoholic so I wasn't really able to communicate what

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