So one of the things that I see often written about me when you guys comment on this podcast

and on my book and wherever people write comments about things, my Facebook page, one

of the things I noticed quite a bit is you guys thanking me for being so honest and so

real and sharing so much of my own life and my own experiences with you guys in order to inspire

other people to heal or maybe at least make you feel a little bit less alone as you are healing.

And so I will say in the spirit of that I come to you today in a really difficult place. As a lot

of you guys know, if you follow the podcast, I have been dealing with issues around parenting my

youngest daughter who has struggled with a great deal of anxiety and panic this summer. And it's

just been so exhausting. It's just been really hard to watch her suffer, to see how it touches

into my childhood experience of suffering in the ways I suffered, in the ways I felt alone,

in the ways I felt scared and panicked sometimes. And wanting also so badly, it's sort of like an

occupational hazard, wanting so badly for her to get this TMS thing, not just for foot pain or

not just for, you know, body aches, but for anxiety and for understanding that she doesn't have to

be so scared, but she's 11 and sometimes there's only so much we can do to impart what we want other

people to get onto them. It's really hard and it can be really heartbreaking. And that's kind of

where I'm coming from today because she's really struggling. She started school. It's not going,

it's not going poorly. It's just not going great. She had a really bad night last night up all night,

just with anxiety and with fear. And of course that means I was up all night, but even though

I'm really tired, the reason I wanted to come to you guys today is because I wanted to discuss

illusion of control. I have lived honestly almost my entire life until the past few years and I'm 47,

so that's a lot of years, thinking that if I control the situation, I was safe. And so, so many of

you out there are shaking your heads right now. I know you guys, rather not in your heads right now,

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