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Good morning. God morning to you.

There's a note I keep here and view when I'm recording.

It says, I release all inner resistance and doubt.

I trust my inner power.

It's an affirmation from Louise Hayes,

like calendar, yearly calendar. About a week ago, right before I left for Maui,

I was up with one of the kiddos. It was a late night.

May have gotten like two hours of sleep and they had gotten back to sleep.

But I had to be up in like 30 minutes so I could do this.

And I wasn't sleepy, but the mind was very busy. It was already trying to figure out what words would come.

Trying to forecast what the message would be.

And I remember clearly having the thought like, oh, oh, you're not feeling love.

And then trying to fill love and recognizing a familiar resistance, a resistance that I

felt often in years past where it felt like that love was not where I was, that it was far away

and difficult to tap into impossible to tap into in certain conditions and around certain people.

Like I said before, it felt like I couldn't be aware of love while talking or while eating at a

restaurant or while shopping or while exercising. Like while the mind and body was

needed to be active, it was difficult if not impossible to fill love.

And so then I recognized an equally familiar shift from trying or forcing

into inviting. I invited love in the way you would invite sleep. I was not inviting sleep

because I did not have enough time, but just shifting out of the forcing because where does that

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