Some things that happen at night are just for grown-ups. This episode is not

intended for younger listeners, so you've been warned. I'm Vanessa Lowe and you're going to call Tom who is found in the darkness something he can't explain

When I told Tom about nocturn and asked if he had any nighttime stories. He said, I might have something for you, but it'll be hard to put into words.

I am a photographer and videographer. My world is so visual and my memories are based visually and what happens at night

when I'm with the lover and the lights are off.

How do I make memory of these very intense adventures that we go on?

We've gone through this whole journey together.

And the next day I'm trying to grasp onto the memories

and I don't have a visual reference.

The mind's looking for the visuals,

but there's nothing for the mind to go to which is a relief too

I'm doing that constantly all day with my work but how do I remember without my eyes?

And I've tried to talk about it, try to write about it,

but I always come up short.

It's all senses, it's all touch. It's all smell.

It's hearing, but it's not words.

There's normally a thought process that goes on with an experience,

but I can't access that place because thought goes

out the window in this nocturnal sensual adventure. The whole idea is to lose the mind. It's to abandon to just the sensation of the moment.

So if we lose all of that, there's no words, there's no sight.

How do I make a memory and then how do I then access it later?

There's a more vivid memory of something that happened at 3 o'clock in the afternoon

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