Hello.

I am pretty heartbroken right now and confused and okay I'm okay.

Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah, shit really hit the fan with us recently and sort of came out of

of didn't.

I had been feeling pretty distant

from Stephen for a while now.

Like he didn't really want to be here with us.

I was kind of dragging him, come on let's go here, come on let's do this.

And my gut was saying that something was off for sure.

My gut was saying something's not right even though when I would ask no everything's fine but just very cold and

short and so I just thought okay just focus on me and the kids and my work and it sure did.

it will all reveal itself when it's meant to.

And it sure did. You know, Stephen and I are both recovering alcoholics. We both work together, we're parents together, we're in a marriage together, and

that's a lot of stuff together. We both let our program slide, which for those of you who don't know, just work it, we work a 12-step program and it just kind of keeps you grounded and you know make sure you

continually check on am I in fear am I resentful am I in fear, am I resentful, am I grateful, kind of keeps your side of the street clean

when you're practicing the program and both of us were not doing that for a while now.

We weren't drinking or using but we weren't, we were dry as they say.

And I thought I was doing just fine, though I could sense something wasn't right

with our relationship for a while and but I just thought oh he'll come around and then

there were things that happened that I'm not comfortable talking about the details, but things that

happened that crossed certain boundaries that I had and I was just not okay with it and when I expressed that it really set things off and I we decided to take some space from each other I really just felt that my kids and my safety was the most important thing and I felt that he was a bit unstable and needed time to get help and sort his mental health issues out because sometimes it's not

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