Hey deserving listeners, let me tell you a story about someone who has narcissistic personality disorder.

This is a profile of a semi-real person and I've changed a number of the details to mask their identity.

If this person were to hear this, they would not even recognize themselves.

So that's, you know, that's the common practice for us therapist.

So, but you know, I'm describing I'm describing actual events if that makes any sense.

Okay, so he grew up in an alcoholic family. His childhood was very rough. His

parents were too busy or too distracted to give him any tension or any love. So he turned to

sports and grades as a way to gain attention from other people, including his family.

But he never really felt good about himself. In fact, deep down, he had extremely low self-esteem, like really, really low self-esteem, like shame he hated himself but he was good at

sports and he knew how to get people to like him so he distract himself with

he distracted himself with sports and and also by being entertaining to other

people he was the clown he was the good boy but when he was home he was easily hurt and he was often very moody and

very distant. And if someone in his family made fun of him he really was hurt easily and he would think about it day and night and he would react

very badly when people teased him and he spent a lot of energy making sure that no one could tease him. So he made

sure that his hair was perfect, that his outfits were just right.

And he also adapted by leaning into the ridicule at times somewhat.

So he started wearing weird outfits.

That way of someone made fun of him, he knew that his fashion sense was just better than the average person.

He had developed a sense of superiority in other areas too. In sports he was often the best player and he took a lot of

pride in that. But at home he didn't get a lot of pride and he mostly felt invisible.

He felt the constant tension between his parents.

They would get into violent arguments sometimes,

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