I talk about toxic masculinity there. One of the things that's always associated with that

is just men's lack of willingness to like make a phone call and to a friend and say,

listen, I am not okay. And you know, you also have been very open about the day where you

were feeling like that and your super woman mother once again. She called you coincidentally

or? Yeah, yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

Well, it was kind of like, yeah, I went to cooler and then like shit, like a texture

of a couple times and then she just called me.

Because you're feeling bad, so you text her.

Yeah. I mean, people are telling you this, but when you're in that zone, you know, if

you're in a absolute spiral, everything goes into a right blur. All I know is that I was

in my house and I was in my pants and I was, I could not stop crying and I couldn't stop

worrying about everything and my head was going like a whirlwind. Like, I was worrying about

stuff that wasn't even logical. Like, what was your brain telling you?

I can't even describe it. Like, it's like the only way it feels like anything in my head

that could have been a problem was a problem. Have you ever had like, you know, when you're

hung over and it will like the next day, I don't know if you drink, but the next day,

right? If you have a hangover, you have to, it's like paranoia thing like throughout

the like stuff just makes you feel a little bit edgy. Like, yeah, yeah, yeah. It's like

that, but a million times. The only way also that I talk about it is like, it's like

paranoia and it's like Mike, your brain becomes Mike Tyson and he's just beating you up and

you've not had one boxing lesson in your life. So you're just kind of like, you can't

do anything. You're just taking it, right? And it's like, you're things like you look

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