Before we start, a warning that this episode talks about suicide.

And these guys, we did it, mom. We're happy. And

I was terrified. Like the fear I felt the day he was born just struck through me like a light

need bolt. Like, this is too perfect. And this doesn't happen for us.

I'm Nora Mcnerney and this is terrible thanks for asking. And that was Latisha Ochoa Adams

recalling an Easter Sunday with her family. When her son Anthony said we did it, he meant they made

it. From the dysfunctional home where Latisha grew up in Amarillo, Texas, the home where she had

Anthony at age 17. From the apartment building in Houston where she and Anthony lived when he was a

toddler and she was bartending and working late nights. When DJs and servers and regulars helped to

keep an eye on little toddler Anthony while mama worked. From the traumatic experiences of Anthony's

early life with Latisha's first husband, whose issues with addiction became issues of abuse.

From the years where Latisha was a single mom gone wild and Anthony was trying to parent his

youngest siblings. They made it through generational trauma and poverty to hear, to a nice life in

suburban Texas. They made it. 19 years earlier when Anthony was a tiny baby Latisha hoped for this day,

dreamed for this day. Well, she feared it might never happen. She held her first born son, looked at him

and thought, I'm never going to keep this baby safe. Like, I am not capable of giving him a good life.

I just remember all these thoughts of like, he's gonna die. And that was my greatest fear

his entire life. Like, I'm gonna fail and he's gonna die.

It's now 2017. The last year of Anthony's life, though nobody knows that yet.

Anthony will die by suicide in March 2017. But for now, Anthony is the father of two girls.

He and his fiance Ariana live near by Latisha, her husband Stacy and Latisha's three youngest

children who are all now teenagers. And things are good. Not just the change of location, it's that

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