I had to be perfect I guess ultimately take on the suffering.

The player of the tournament Johnny Wilkinson

a genuine sporting legend.

How much pressure has this man been under this week?

For me it was do or die on the field.

So therefore, where other people kind of called it quits and threw in the towel,

I didn't have the choice.

Here it is for Johnny.

There's all go deal in history.

Was your mental health better or worse after that moment?

When I was on the field in the zone, I was operating at a level I couldn't even understand.

Waking up the next morning leaves you in the cold

light of day. I thought there was going to be joy here. I was convinced there isn't.

I spent my life being very fit but not really that healthy. Health is about what fitness can come out of

and unless you look after health it's dangerous. People say I wish I've made more of

my life, wish I'd enjoyed every moment. But that starts with health,

working on someone else really doesn't work for anyone.

Working on yourself tends to work for everyone.

So without further ado, I'm Stephen Bartlett

and this is the diary of a CEO. I hope nobody's listening, but if you are, then please keep this yourself. Johnny, you went on to become one of the real greats in Rugby and I remember watching you in my living room as a very very young kid on the screen in

awe not just in that 2003 moment but but long before then and when I think about and when I sit here

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